Therapy?

Three hundred and sixty five moons to change, to adapt, to set wrongs right, and to continue my way down several footpaths, some familiar, some never treaded before. Resolutions for 2007, to the tune of Jewel’s classic, Hands.

"If I could tell the world just one thing
It would be that we’re all ok"

1. To have more self-belief and faith, that most times, things are never as bad as it seems, and even if they are… most things can’t kill you.

"And not to worry because worry is wasteful
And useless in times like these"

2. To not take things personally and regard everything as a personal attack. To listen to reason, and to understand circumstance. No more getting angry and disturbed for petty reasons.

"I will not be made useless
I won’t be idled with despair"

3. To use the whatever time I have beneficially. No more procrastination, no more time-wasting. There’s a world of things to do and only so little time to accomplish them. This year particularly, I have loads to prove.

"I will gather myself around my faith
For light does the darkness most fear"

4. To be more religious, something I have neglected in the past year. To believe in the power of prayer. And to honour God and His creations however I can. So that when someone asks me "tell me about your religion," I finally can.

"My hands are small, I know,
but they’re not yours they are my own
but they’re not yours they are my own
and I am never broken"

5. To honour my parents and family with all I have. Without question.

"Poverty stole your golden shoes"

6. To be a rightful ambassador for health. To continue my running, exercise and diet regime, lose another 10kg, and hopefully participate in some 10km runs.

"But it didn’t steal your laughter"

7. To be there for all my friends as they have for me, all these years. You have changed, and even saved my life in many ways and I hope to do the same. You know I love you guys like mad.

"And heartache came to visit me
But i knew it wasn’t ever after"

8. To learn to have patience. The only virtue that I have to learn, relearn and relearn. To be patient for appointments, for friends, for results. To grit my teeth and be more tolerant towards difficult people. All good things come to those who wait. "Patience, my young Padawan."

"We will fight, not out of spite
For someone must stand up for what’s right
Cause where there’s a man who has no voice
There ours shall go singing"

9. To not bad-mouth anyone behind their back. We are all but by-products of imperfection and it is not in our right place to judge anyone. It is probably the easiest thing to preach but hard hard HARDEST to practice. I hope I get it right this year.

"In the end only kindness matters
In the end only kindness matters"

10. To do no harm towards others. By the end of this year hopefully I’ll be a practicing doctor. Sleepless and stressed out, no doubt, but full of heart and yearning for a place in society. Before all that can take place I’ll take a page of advice from Vijay’s dad. "Son, try not to kill anyone."

"I will get down on my knees and I will pray
I will get down on my knees and I will pray
I will get down on my knees and I will pray"

My end of semester finals is in a little more than a month. I’m scared as hell.

Pray for me.